|Revoking My Gay Card
||[Feb. 13th, 2007|02:29 pm]
|||||Waiting on the world to change By John Mayer||]|
I am Bisexual.
These three words have caused me so many problems in life. Fortunately not from my family. When I officially told my brother. It had always been a given before he had seen me kissing girls and boys. He said to me "So?" and that was the end of it.
The problem with coming out is that it is a never ending process with every new person. Trying to decide whether or not you need to announce it in a situation is hard. It is rather like being of mixed race who can pass for white. If you say nothing you have to live with the squirming sensation of being a traitor. If you announce it sudden people look at you funny, straights are nervous and gays are worse to bisexuals that straights are to gays. For people who keep yelling about tolerance, I have gotten harassed by homosexuals that I am a fence sitter, traitor or just being trendy.
Now that I am married it is even worse. My husband knows and does not bother him because boy or girl, I am monogamous. But his family does not know and would not understand.
The gay community is worse. It is though by getting married and having a kid I magically am not gay anymore. My Gay card has been revoked and I don't understand how. Bisexual means both. Just because I was lucky enough to fall in love with a person who happens to be of the opposite sex does not change my sex preference.